This I Believe

I believe everyone has worth. Whether you believe it or not, you are beautiful and should always remain confident. I have always struggled with this. I let the way people talk to me or things they think about me define who I am.

I have never been one to think highly of myself. I never thought I was good at anything. One night at dinner, I went through all the school subjects with my mom, and I gave her an excuse as to why I could never do anything with my life. I have always struggled in math.  I haven’t ever been a really strong writer. The things in biology class gross me out completely, and I view history as a bunch of boring facts to memorize. I had convinced myself I would have to live with my parents for the rest of my life. I thought I was a screw-up.  I had no purpose.

Not knowing I had these feeling, people would poke at me with their sharp words. They were kidding, I know, but it still bothered me. After you are told something for a period of time, you start to believe it. I tried to fill this void, this emptiness in my life, with anything I could. I was searching in all the wrong areas. This summer was the turning point of my outlook on life. I went to a summer camp called Snowbird Wilderness Outfitters. Not only was this camp tons of fun with all of the outdoor recreations we had, but the learning experience was amazing. I do not find it a coincidence that one of the topics we talked about that week was exactly what I needed to hear.

After attending this camp, I now believe that everyone has a purpose. God made me just the way he wanted. I have things I may want to change, but I have been gifted with different talents than other people. One of the major things people do now that lower their self esteem is comparing themselves with other people. You should not compare yourself to the people of Hollywood or even your friends! You will always be disappointed because you were not made like them. You were made to be you, and there is nothing and no one that can change that. The words people say and the things they think are not what define you. Different does not necessarily have a negative connotation. No two people are exactly alike. We should be confidents in what we are.

Learning this has changed the way I view things- even people. I realize now God has a plan for me way bigger than I can even begin to fathom. I just have to be patient and wait. He will reveal it to me when the time is right. I am confident. I will not degrade something He has made in His perfect image.